Monday, April 25, 2011

Forever


Wow, it has been like forever since I have made a blog post. I bet you all were beginning to believe that i had disappeared on you, weren't yah? Well, have no fear, Kindy is here! ;)
<----(see the pretty picture??? I made that on picnik.com :D)

Well, aside from being my normal abnormal self. I'm doing great! I'm in a relationship with the most awesomest man on earth. He's funny, caring, nutty, tells lame jokes, is a computer geek (which is great for a technical don't person like me). He comforts me when I'm down. He doesn't coddle me, but gives it to me straight from both sides. Oh yeah, I know what you're thinking, I'm painting him as the 'perfect' guy. Well, he's not, that's one thing I know. Neither am I. No one is.

Just cause I say all these nice things about him (did I forget to mention he's both handsome and adorable??? check out the banner at the top of the blog!) doesn't mean he never gets on me nerves or anything like that. Cause, trust me, he DOES. There are times when I out and out want to strangle him, or whack him back side of his head for some thing. But then again, who am I to talk? I bet there are plenty of times when he wants to do the same too me :P lolz

But hey, isn't that what love is? You keep going, you keep caring, no matter what? When that person does everything perfect for you, you love them. When they do everything wrong and you want to shove them off a cliff. You love them.

However, you don't get off easy here. You don't continue to love them just by saying "I love you". Nu-uh, it's not that easy. You love them by doing that job they couldn't get, and DON'T shove it in their faces. If you're going to do it for them, do it and swallow whatever it is that would cause you to be a smart aleck about it. Unless you think it's worth it being a jerk and causing wounds that need never exist?

Love is there, even when it might not be wanted. Love is there when you're up, and when you're down. Love is there when you don't want to do that stupid little thing that would make the person you love really happy for a reason you don't understand.

Love isn't all peachy, fuzzy, warm. Love is easy and love is tough. Love is going to give you joy beyond belief, and it's gonna tear you to pieces in a way you never thought. When you love you can't keep the walls up anymore. For love to be, you gotta give all and show all. The ugly and the beautiful. The wanted and the unwanted.

Love is doing something when you don't have a chance of ever getting something back from it. Love is doing something not because you want to, not because you have to, and not because you should. Love is doing something because you 'will'. Because you're willing to fight for it. You're willing to give all for it. No should, would, could, shall, or can. It's about will. Will, you do it? Are you WILLing to fight?

And now, that is all I have to say for that right now, and I don't even know where the all came from. How do I do that? Oh, and a note to keep in mind, this is all from my mind and is all my opinions and thoughts. I have no philosophical degree to back me up. All I got is my heart and one thing that's been shown to me. Jesus dying on the cross for our wretchedly pathetic lives that should be forever damned to the pits of hell. He LOVED us enough to come to earth (willingly) and die for us. He didn't do it because he had to. Not because he could. Most definitely not because he should've.

The only part I'm a bit befuddled on is, did he do it just because he wanted to? I'm not quite so sure about that. If he REALLY wanted to die, why would he pray for the cup of pain and suffering to pass from him? You know what I think, I think he did it because he loved us and was freely willing to do his father's will. And because he was willing to save our pathetic hides, even the whole while we mocked and turned away from him. He loved and loves us. He was willing to die. And he never in all eternity had to. God could've easily remade us all and just wiped the earth clean. But, he was willing to send his son, and his son was willing to come and die. Praise God for all the chances we get to love to one another and show love to him. It will never be the same as what he did. But we're getting the feeling of it, even when it causes us to cry or want to run away. Forever God loves, should not we follow suit?

(disclaimer: this has nothing to do with any present state of my emotions, I was merely rambling on and on about this because it felt like I might've been on to something, if you think so in any way, please, do give me your comments and critique of of my thoughts)


God bless~
Kindy out ;)

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Me and Kindy made a short story that used words from a scrabble game that we made up words in. I also updated the website, so tell us what you think.


You'll also notice we have a new template.

this is the word list:


Galinolen
Sereruq
Davop
Goaxenhy
Fasos
ICOGERS
AINITOA
 TEUVER
BOCLIX
MITRE



Teuver took a deep breath and uttered a prayer under his breath before turning around the tree. Nothing on the forest floor was moving, but he was sure he had heard a noise before. Davop was holding his crossbow and was checking as well, but Teuver felt almost alone in this absolute silence. One look though told him the path to the old castle was clear of patrols, at least for the moment
“Teuver,” Davop spoke in hushed tones, “Are you sure we have enough mitre left to escape once we free Fasos?” Teuver silently shook his head. They were going to have to wing this.
“We’re Boclix, we can get through this. That what our trainer always said: Once in trouble...”
“Shut up Teuver, and get with the program.” Davop said, and walked forward into the sunlight. he could see the castle looming over them in its old dusty walls.
“Let’s do this.” Teuver said, and fired off his rope from the crossbow in his hand.
Davop scowled behind Teuver’s back. Annoying little hot shot, that’s what Teuver was. One moment he was going to go off on a babbling spree about their old mentor, the next he was acting like he had actually been paying attention. Oh well, Davop pushed it out of his head. It didn’t matter; they had a mission to do, they couldn’t afford petty stupidity on his part. Following suit with Teuver, he too let his rope loose. Within moments they were both expertly scaling Ainitoa Castle’s walls, which would lead them to the heart of Sereruq City.
They got onto the walls, and crouched down, hoping they had not been spotted. Teuver looked around and thought that the guards must have been at lunch, just as Davop had said they would. He took in a deep breath.
“The dungeon is below the barracks, if they are eating then they are guarding it thoroughly.” Teuver muttered quietly.
“They would have a second door within the stronghold, but getting there would require a distraction, we have to get as close as possible and then one of us fire off a Mitre to the barracks and see if the other can get in.” Davop said.
“Sounds risky.” Teuver said.
“Life is risky boy, you’re faster so I’ll fire off the Mitre, you get yourself to the dungeon once the coast is clear. I’ll fire off a second once you have Fasos.” Davop Said, and loaded the explosive Mitre into his crossbow. Teuver took in a deep breath and hoped he was gonna make it out alive.
Davop kept an eye on the barracks, while watching Teuver silently make his way across to a small, seemingly unwatched, door that led into the strong hold. Teuver stopped in the shadows near the door. He was only five quick strides away. He gave the signal, and Davop shot the mitre at the barracks. A crack, like a clap of thunder sounded, smoke and flame erupted everywhere. Davop had lost sight of Teuver, but he was sure the kid had made it in. A bit showoffy he might be, but he made a dang good Boclix warrior. Davop let a grim smile cross his face, then returned his attention to the chaos that was ensuing below at the barracks. Getting out of here alive was going to be one heck of a ride.
The guards were scattered, and the ones who were not burning inside were outside trying to put out the fire. The explosion was much larger than Davop expected, he almost wondered if he had hit a powder barrel. He put that thought aside as he went and hid in a safe place where no one would be looking. He could barely see anything, but at the moment that was a good thing. He took a deap breath and thought this was going too easy; as soon as he thought that though the horn blew letting the already shocked castle know there were intruders, and all Davop could suddenly think about was if they had caught Teuver.
Teuver heard the horn go off, it didn’t help his already racing heart. A whole heck of a lot more would be lost than just his life and Davop’s if he failed. Not to mention Fasos’ life would be gone too, and that was the most important one. Fasos had been acting as High Galinolen, which was a type of highly revered counciler amongst the kings court. The High Galinolen’s council trumped that of every other council man’s. But most importantly, he was let into the king’s circle of Icogers. Amongst this small group, rested the true power of the kingdom, with the king in charge. Every bit of information was heard and shared there, weaknesses, strengths, anything and everything. Fasos had been aquiring information from this group for the past three fortnights, then he had been found out. Teuver only hoped that the alarm being set off didn’t cause Fasos’ captors to decide to kill him on the spot, if that happened, everything would be lost. Teuver shook his head to clear these thoughts away. He couldn’t think like that, not now not ever. He was a Boclix warrior, and he was going to get his job done. If Fasos needed rescue, Fasos was going to be rescued. With that last thought, Teuver turned a bend in the halls, and found himself with a problem. A fork in the passage. Perfectly identical in every way...Which one led to Fasos?
He took the left rout, and found himself heading down a flight of stairs. He got to the bottom,a dn saw two guards getting armed, he pulled out a knife and threw it at the guard ont eh right, and then pulled out his crossbow and shot the other squarely in the chest. He looked around, but none of the prisoners looked like Fasos, and he started to worry that he had chosen the wrong rout.  then one man stood up and looked him in the eye, and Teuver knew it was Fasos, he pulled the keys off the wall and opened the cell.
“Hurry, the citadel guards will be here any time to execute all the spies.” Fasos whispered hoarsely.
“We’ll get you out long before they can arrive.” Teuver said, and unshackled Fasos, who stood up and seemed to be wobbly on his legs. Teuver helped him out fo the sell and took the black cloaks off the guards to cover themselves.
“We should be able to go unnoticed at a distance.” Teuver said. “Arm yourself.”
Teuver kept up a steady pace, despite Fasos’ weakend state. They needed to get out,  fast. They passed through the forked passage and began winding their way back along the path Teuver had taken. Teuver paused for a moment at a bend in one of the halls. Right was the direction he had come from, but that was risky. Fasos was weakened, and Teuver was beginning to think that it wasn’t just from from a possible few days starving. The way Fasos was leaning on him, made Teuver think the weakness had more to do with a wound. He was just about to check to see if it was somewhat safe, when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked back into Fasos’ deep set eyes, a question on his face. Fasos merely shook his head and inclined it in the other direction. It took Teuver less time than it took to blink to make his descion. He nodded in agreement to Fasos and headed in the other direction.
“Trust me on this,” Teuver merely nodded. His initial instincts were telling him no, considering the fact that this passage led deeper into into the castle. But hey, who had been here the longest? It sure wasn’t Teuver and he was going to trust Fasos. It was the wise and mature thing to do..and heck, the least likely to get them blasted for the time being.
Davop watched as the guards became so disorganized that they were fighting each other. he was pretty sure chaos had set in fully, and his work was done. He ran  for the building and leaped into he window. Teuver had taken too long, so now it was Davop’s turn to get Fasos out of trouble. He was running down the empty halls when he and Teuver literally collided into each other. the two sprawled over the floor, but regained themselves quickly.
“Where were you?” Davop asked.
“Fasos lead me this way instead of the way I went.” Teuver said.
“Well duh, this way is closer to the walls.” Davop said. “Come on.”
They all got out of the window, and Davop looked to see if the coast was clear, and then they all ran along the wall, and headed for their ropes. When he got there though he saw they had been severed. He and Teuver looked at each other.
“We got to get him to the gate.” Teuver said.
“No too risky.” Davop said.
That moment they looked at each other though stopped as Davop felt a thud in his chest, and a yell about the spy. He looked down and saw an arrow, and the next thing he knew he was falling, he was twirling through the air, and then everything went black.
Teuver had to bite his lip till he tasted blood to keep himself from screaming. With a sudden twist he turned Fasos around and began running pell mell across the wall. They needed another way down. The gate was too risky. He needed get Fasos out no matter what. That was the only thing that kept him from turning back to his foes and charging them with everything he had. Unfortunately any thought of even thinking about avenging Davop was quelled as he felt a sudden heavy weight jerk his arm. He stopped instantly and turned to see that Fasos had dropped, his arm tightly wrapped around his abdomen.
“Get up,” Teuver urged, his voice surprisingly steady.
“I...I can’t,” Fasos gasped, a spasm of pain passing through his body. Teuver looked at him in horror. what on earth did he mean he couldn’t go on? Everything would be lost if Fasos couldn’t deliver his information. Teuver reached down and grabbed Fasos by his under arms, ignoring the man’s sharp intake of breath. Adrenaline surging through him, Teuver swiftly placed Fasos on his back and made his way for the west wall. He knew a way out from there...
he ducked behind a couple small buildings and loaded his crossbow. at that point he shot the first guard int he chest,a nd got to the side door int he castle. He hated trying to squeeze through, but after a minute he was able to get the two of them through safely. He set a Mitre on the floor, and closed the door so that if anyone ran in, they would set it off. He knew he was in the home stretch, but his back was wearing out from carrying Fasos, so he tried to make it to a tree. The guards seemed to have lost his trail for the moment, but it wouldn’t take them long. Once he made it to the trees he slid down and collapsed behind one. He laid Fasos on the ground and opened his robe the side.
“Careful.” Fasos said.
There was a gaping wound there, and Teuver knew he had to bandage it fast.
“This comes from the guards, they thought they killed me.” Fasos said. “Maybe they did.”
“Don’t talk like that.” Teuvar said while pulling out a bit of cloth from his satchel. he wrapped it tightly around Fasos side; then he stood up to see where the guards were.
One look and he quickly ducked behind the tree again. His heart threatening to leave his body, Teuver prayed he hadn’t been seen. He took another peek, this time moving much more cautiously. He let out a silent sigh of relief. He decided to make a note to himself, high adrenaline rushes could cause slight hallucination. He looked down at Fasos, the man was extremely pale. Great, how was he supposed to get him to safety now? Fasos was staring at Teuver intently, which slightly unnerved him.
“What?” Teuver asked, crouching low his voice barely a whisper. Fasos reached with one hand and pulled something out from beneath his jerkin.
“I was afraid this might happen, so I made sure I had a back up,” he stated, handing Teuver a small cylindrical object.  Teuver looked at it, it reminded him of the secret message cylinders that only higher up Boclix warriors handled. He looked again at Fasos fumbling around with a ring on the middle finger of his right hand.
“Here, take these,” Fasos said, handing Teuver the ring to go along with the cylinder. “Keep them hidden on you...just in case.” Fasos instructed. Teuver gave him a look of defiance.
“We’re going to make it and that’s that, even if I have to carry you ever mitre blasted step of the way.” Teuver stated, unbridled determination setting his face. Lifting Fasos, slightly gentler than before, he made his way as swiftly and silently through the forest. He didn’t plan on being the only one to survive this mission. He would complete it. Nonetheless, he still took the cylinder and decoder ring, he wasn’t stupid, he planned on being prepared for anything, no matter how grim circumstances might begin to look.
He picked up Fasos again, and started to run for the bridge. there were guards now waiting there, so he decided to avoid the bridge, once he was across the bridge they would be fools to pursue him through the old forest, but he had to get there. he walked down to the river.
“DO you think you can swim?” Teuver asked. Fasos shook his head, and so Teuver grabbed him carefully.
“Hang on, I’ll get you across.” Teuver said, and dived into the water. eh did not expect the current to carry him so hard though, and he nearly lost control of Fasos, but he started making his way towards shore. They passed under the bridge just before reaching the shore, which made Teuver nervous and hoped no one saw him. They did however see him, but did not shoot immediately.
Teuver froze, the cold water swirling around his and Fasos’ bodies. The guards on the bridge were hesitant, fear flickered in their eyes. It took all of Teuver’s ability not to let a smile of triumph cross his lips yet. He wasn’t safe still standing there in the water. He needed to get to at least the edge of the trees. but before that, he needed to get out of the water. Teuver took a hesitant step back towards the old forest. Unlike anybody else who went through the old forest, Teuver knew what he was getting himself into. Davop would’ve called him insane for even thinking it, but Teuver knew the forest far better than anyone he had ever met, and he knew it far better than anyone would ever have thought he could know. Teuver took two more slow steps back, bringing him to only a yard from the edge of the woods and a whole foot out of the water. The guards hand jerked, but still he looked fearfully back and forth between Teuver and the forest. He was a young guard, no doubt willing to do anything to get in good with his commanding officers. Nevertheless, Teuver knew the look of someone who had been fed on tales of the old forest hand in  hand with his food, from infancy on up. Teuver decided to take another gamble. He backed up out of the water quickly, then dashed sideways, scuttling like a crap into the dark leafy foliage. Once behind the greenery he didn’t wait, and it was a good thing, arrows were already flying. Teuver moved swiftly and as steadily as he could with Fasos’ weight on his back. He knew where to head, and he planned on getting there. The arrows might be flying, but he knew the most he might have to worry about was a few soldiers daring enough to follow.